I experienced morning sickness all day last Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
As I’m sitting typing, I can feel it coming again. I can’t do much except lying on bed or on the couch all day and rest. Movements seem to bring on the sickness faster.
According to research, taking vitamin B6 does help to ease morning sickness. I sip some organic raw milk when it hits and it seems to ease the churning for a short. The best way to not get morning sickness I found is to stay in bed and not move too much!
My daily diet consists of tiger’s milk if I can be bothered to make it in the morning. Otherwise, I’ll have a cup of raw milk yogurt. I also try to include bone broth in my diet daily, either in rice porridge or soup. We have organ meats, especially liver at least once a week. We also include lamb’s kidney and chicken hearts in our diet. I take cod liver oil daily and folic acid supplement as instructed by the mid-wife. I’m in two minds about taking supplements but I suppose the risk is too high in the event of insufficient folic acid in my diet. I also drink Kombucha, and take lacto fermented food.
The tummy was rather sore last night. I did a rather big one this morning. Since, my tummy hasn’t felt too bad. At the moment, I prefer soupy food to solid food. Also, there was a slight spotting this morning - just a trace of blood. I’ve given up being concerned with traces of spotting as it’s out of my control. Besides, if the pregnancy isn’t successful I would rather the body picks up the signal sooner than later. It’s less traumatic for me, anyway.
I have been plagued with extreme tiredness since week 5 of the pregnancy which started last Thursday. It hits the hardest from 1pm to 3pm daily.
My body temperature gets extra hot in the night even when the outdoor temperature was -2°C. It started 2 nights ago. I’m getting a feeling of heartburn – an uncommon feeling for me.
I started feeling nausea mid day yesterday. Last night, in the middle of a freezing winter, I felt so hot. And I’m feeling nausea again mid day today. These are very similar to the pregnancy symptoms I had the first time round. We’ll see….
(Sunday)
An informal scan was performed and a pregnancy sac was found but no heartbeat was detected. I had to return the next day for a formal ultra sound scan.
The scan revealed a sac of 9 weeks pregnancy but a 6 weeks fetal development. No heartbeat detected. It was bad news. I opted for a natural miscarriage although the doctor talked like DNC was the natural way to do it. I stood firm by my decision.
The doctor gave a specific instruction: if a fever developed and bleeding is bad, come back to the hospital immediately.
(Tuesday)
The spotting got heavier the next day. I was at work. However I decided to go home as I didn’t want to be caught out, as I did read that it would come suddenly. On my way home, I bought 2 packs of maternity pad in preparation for the inevitable. That evening, mild cramps and backaches started. It seemed more intense at night.
(Wednesday)
Cramps stopped during the day but the backache continued. I was a wearing pad in preparation for that moment, the whole time. That night, the cramps and backache intensified. After midnight, I woke from my sleep, I could feel the pad soaking. I couldn't get up fast enough to the toilet to check it out. Sitting on the toilet bowl, clots of tissue were dropping rapidly into the toilet bowl. I had to change pad every 3 hours. More tissue dropped out each time I went to the toilet. The cramp and backache continued. My tummy did feel flatter. I hardly had any sleep after that.
(Thursday)
The next day, I was exhausted from the lack of sleep. Bleeding was heavy but it wasn’t soaking heavy. By end of the day, there was hardly any bleeding. I thought the miscarriage was over. But I couldn't be more wrong. The cramps in the tummy were increasing painful. The cramps intensified as the sun set further. At the end of the evening, the hot-water bottle was refilled 4 times just to ease a bit of the most intense pain. The cramps got worse after midnight, and there was an intense pain at the lower pelvis. The feeling was a mixture of bad constipation and intense menstrual cramps. I was going to the toilet every 15 minutes to try to push something out. I was in intense pain when I lied down to get some sleep. This went on all night. At one point, I just wanted to sleep sitting on the toilet bowl out of the exhaustion. I was worn out by the numerous trips to the loo and the none relenting pain. At 3am. the pain was progressively intensifying every minute, and the waves of cramps had now turned into a continual sharp pain at the lower pelvis. The backache was a mild pain in comparison. At one point, I thought I was dying. I nearly called an ambulance. Thousands of thoughts came to my mind – maybe I was constipated and that I need to go for a walk to get things moving. So I started walking around the round, jumped up and down, squatting, did every possible things that came to mind to ease the pain. At the same time, I felt that something was trying to come out but it was kinda of stuck. This was because the pain was felt specifically at the lower pelvis area.
Finally at about 5:30am, when I was squatting on the bedroom floor to ease the tummy pain, I suddenly felt a sharp pain at the opening of the cervix, something was trying to squeeze through the hole. I couldn’t bring myself to the toilet quick enough. As soon as I sat on the toilet bowl, a piece of something dropped out – it was the size of a hand-span. Unlike other tissues I passed out previously, it was in one big piece. The bleeding returned. As soon as that thing passed out, my entire being relaxed, and the cramps eased soon after. I suspected it was probably the sac with the placenta but I was absoluted knackered. All I had energy for was to crawl back into bed to catch some rest. I flushed it down the toilet bowl.
(Friday)
I slept till mid morning the next day. The pain was gone but I felt sore muscles around the tummy. The bleeding continued. I was weak. My tummy was bloated all day and continued into the evening. I was physically weak, mentally in a state of blur.
(Saturday)
The next day, the bloatedness continued along with physical exhaustion. The bleeding had now turned into heavy spotting.
(Sunday)
The bloated tummy finally went away after my bowel was cleared. So, it was probably caused by the constipation. Spotting got heavy each time I stood too long or walked for about 5 minutes continuously or when I mildly exerted myself. But I only needed to change the pad twice a day for hygiene reasons.
With much excitement and fears we stepped foot into the hospital for the ultrasound scan. Being previously instructed, I ensured that the bladder was full. We didn’t wait long, and soon, we were ushered into a dim room with a more advanced machine than that one we saw the day before. Without much delay, the ultrasound expert started with the ultrasound scan.
First we saw the uterus. It was the expected size. Then we had to SEARCH for the fetus. It was only a lump. The computer measurements estimated 6 weeks worth of growth. So it wasn’t good at all. Personally, I wasn’t surprised but Matt was rather disappointed. The ultrasound expert refused to draw a conclusion, and a senior ultrasound specialist was called into the room to confirm the scan. With more jelly and more scanning, the verdict was passed. I laughed. Not sure why I did that. Maybe that’s my way of coping with the bad news.
Then, we were given instructions to go to the Women Health section of the hospital. More blood tests, blood pressure test. Then the options were presented: D & C or a natural miscarriage. The choice was clear as daylight – natural miscarriage. That’s God’s design, and Matt & I want it that way.
The doctor wants to monitor my miscarriage progress, so I have to return to the hospital next Monday.
After the hospital visit, all I could think of is : What should I do to prevent soiling the place when the miscarriage struck? Apparently when it happens, blood POURS out from the uterus.
I’m now stocked up with maternity pads (with a pack in my bag for emergency purpose).
Watch the space for miscarriage updates.
I started spotting end of week 12 after the midwife couldn’t find the heartbeat with the Doppler. It went on for 4 days. It got heavier on day 4. I contacted the midwife who immediately made arrangement for a scan at the hospital. This was on Sunday, Mother’s day, and Matt’s birthday. Funny isn’t it??
The scan showed a sac and maybe something inside. There wasn’t any sign of heartbeat. Not so good news. Those doctors on duty refused to make any conclusion except that a formal scan is required. Matt and I didn’t think that was good news but we’ll come back for the formal scan to receive the verdict. L
The doctor took some blood to test the pregnancy hormone level and other stuff.
Matt and I prayed prior coming to the hospital. We’re also well supported by our group of church friends. If the child heartbeat isn’t detected at the formal scan, it could mean 2 things. For one, the machine isn’t detecting it. Secondly, the baby isn’t alive.
Because there is a 50% chance that it’s still alive, I’ve decided to go through with a natural miscarriage. I believe God’s has designed the body to dispel what isn’t working inside. The midwife said that 2 weeks of heavy bleeding could be expected. After that if excessive bleeding continues maybe some traces of the pregnancy is still left behind in the womb, a D & C is required. I’m comfortable with that.
At the moment, we’re still hoping against hope. In worst case scenario, Matt still have his lovely wife around, also mean that she can get pregnant again. So, it really isn’t the end of the world. The worst thing is to break the news to the potential grandparents.
I’m spotting a bit today…a bit of backache…a bit to stomach cramp…tired.
All things are in God’s hand. J
I seem to be getting sore back easily these days. It’s usually extra bad after I sat on the floor. I mentioned that to the midwife who made me demonstrate my sitting posture. Then, the cause of the backache became clear. I usually sit crossed-legged. Apparently, during pregnancy all the joints become very flexible, and this sitting posture causes the back muscles to stretch too much thus resulting in backache. The midwife suggests that if I have to sit on the floor, the best posture is to bring the knees to the chest, try to keep the legs together as much as possible…how does that work when the stomach gets bigger?? J
Matt and I were gearing ourselves to the midwife visit during week 12 to hear the baby heartbeat through the fetal Doppler. The midwife finally arrived, and she pulled out the Doppler, and she searched, and searched and searched, but we couldn’t hear any heartbeat.
Needless to say I was probably more concerned than disappointed. The worst scenario came to my mind. But the midwife, being a believer of Jesus Christ, reminded me to be anxious of nothing. That was a great reminder although it is hard to put into practice. Matt, however, didn’t seem to be too worried at all, as he felt the peace of God.
The midwife will come back in a week’s time to search for the heartbeat. The clock is ticking again!
Morning Sickness isn’t a problem anymore except the odd moments of aversion towards certain food or thoughts of food. I’m not feeling as hungry as before and so not needing to eat as much as before. The development of placenta takes up huge energy from the body, I think.
Starting spotting on the 3rd day of week 11 – noticed traces of dried blood stain on my undergarment. Still noticing some staining on day 4.
The midwife said there’s nothing to worry about. But if the bleeding gets more serious couples with menstrual cramps then she should be informed. In that event, a scan may be necessary to check that the baby is okay. Meanwhile, I shouldn’t be lifting anything heavy. I might have overtaxed myself while gardening over the weekend. I spent 3 days clearing and preparing the veg beds for winter planting.
Since I passed week 10, the morning sickness hasn’t struck as severely as the last 4 weeks. I’ve been cooking dinners this week much to the relief of my husband! J
Yesterday I started taking MICRO Genics Pregnancy multivitamin with Tuna Oil
At the back of my mind, I keep having the fear that I may not be eating enough of the essential and important minerals/vitamins for the growing fetus.
I also starting to feel a bit dizzy these days maybe I need more iron…
Last night, I was awake from my sleep by a sharp abdominal pain. The sharp pain lasted about an hour (or maybe less – it felt like eternality though!!) and followed by a nagging pain all night. It went away after Matt prayed for me but returned a while later. The pain resembled a gastric attack that I used to have during my teenage years. The pain is still there even now….
Consulted the midwife this morning and the conclusion is that it probably isn’t related to the pregnancy and there’s nothing she could do about it. The given advise it to see my doctor if the pain persists.
Adolescent flashback:
During my teenage years, I was obsessed with losing weight. I weight 55-56kgs with a height of 1.62m. I wasn’t skinny neither was I fat. But I was a lot bigger than most of my peers. So, I starved, took laxative tablets to empty my bowel which gave me a false sense of slimness, and I exercised like mad. Accompanied by bad dietary habits, I suffered the occasional gastric attacks which would send me rolling in bed in excruciating pain. I felt the same pain last night.
Note: At one stage my weight went down to 49kg, and I felt weak and lacked any physical strength. I feel optimal when I weight about 52kg.
I have now enrolled Matt in two cooking classes. He think is a GREAT idea!!
I’m waiting in great anticipation to yummy Middle Eastern Cuisines and Malaysian style food that Matt is going to churn out in a few months time J
General Feeling:
Extreme tiredness
Nauseous in the evening (from 5pm onwards)
Hunger pangs…
Diet-
Craving sour tasting food – mee
Had cod liver oil once this week
Eat a lot of green leafy vegetables daily (not sure if this is enough folic acid – haven’t taken the folic acid tablets for a week)
Eat a bit of organ meat – especially liver and chicken hearts
Boiled up some lamb stock on Saturday
Cutting down on carbohydrates to avoid piling up unnecessary weight
The hungry pang will suddenly strike and then I NEED to eat – but I can’t eat just anything, it has to be food are appealing. At the moment, I don’t think the look, thought of tomatoes. I can’t eat fresh tomatoes but I can eat baked beans in tomato sauce. Funny isn’t it????
I’m hungry but if it makes me more than 10 minutes to make something, I can’t eat it anymore. The smell will overwhelm me, and make me sick. The last few weeks, my husband and I have been eating out…unfortunately cooking isn’t one of his interests nor strengths…and I NEED FOOD, so eat out is the only option. I’m definitely sending him to a cooking class – don’t tell him, it’s will be his coming birthday present….a paid cooking course J
I weight 60 at present…the heaviest I have ever been.
Just bought my first pair of maternal trousers – size 10 (NZ), and it’s so comfy J
I was plagued with morning sickness most part of the day, but it was usually worst at night.
Then, there was the sudden onset of extreme tiredness whereby I had to take a short nap no matter where I was.
On top of that, every few hours I would be struck with some sort of sudden hunger and I needed to eat something to remove that discomfort.
I didn’t have much sleep these 2 weeks – not sure why, just couldn’t sleep. I could only pinpoint of many causes: I felt so hot all the time.
