Thursday, July 17, 2008
Great Anticipation
To ensure that I supply the body all essential nutrient, I’m trying to eat a nutrient dense diet with a daily intake of 2 raw egg yolks, Cod liver oil day, lacto fermented dairy and vegetables products,and fresh fruits and vegetables.
The focus is to get enough Vitamin A, Vitamin D and folic acid to the body in the event that there is a bun baking.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
More pregnancy symptoms
My 28 cycle should start again today but only the slightest brown spotting arrived. I’m not sure how much the miscarriage 2 months ago has mucked up my regular cycle. I’ll wait till next Monday before making an appointment to see my doctor. It’s all very exciting.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
More symptoms
My body temperature gets extra hot in the night even when the outdoor temperature was -2°C. It started 2 nights ago. I’m getting a feeling of heartburn – an uncommon feeling for me.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
pregnancy Symptoms
I started feeling nausea mid day yesterday. Last night, in the middle of a freezing winter, I felt so hot. And I’m feeling nausea again mid day today. These are very similar to the pregnancy symptoms I had the first time round. We’ll see….
Fertility Awareness
My body temperature is around 36.2°C when menstruating, and it will rise to about 36.7°C when ovulating. It usually hovers between 36.6°C and 36.7°C until the next menstrual cycle beings.
The high temperature is the result of the production of progesterone - a sex hormone produced in women, first by the corpus luteum of the ovary to prepare the womb for the fertilized ovum, and later by the placenta to maintain pregnancy. If the ovum isn’t fertilized, then the menstrual cycle will start, and hormone estrogen will take over, and the base temperate will drop to 36.2°C. And the whole cycle will repeat again
Even if I suspect that I’m pregnant now (due to all the pregnacy symptoms), I won’t know for sure until the next menstrual cycle is due as the pregnancy test kit measures the level of progesterone in my body. But if my menstrual didn’t come, and the body temperate reminds between 36.6°C and 36.7°C, then the result from the pregnancy test would more or less be accurate
Post Miscarriage
Although the mid-wife advised to wait for 3 cycles before TTC (trying to conceive), the results from my research on the internet lead me to the conclusion that if my body is healthy, there are absolutely no problems trying. Also, I’m of the opinion that if the body isn’t ready for it, then I won’t get pregnant.
Emotionally, I recovered surprising quickly from the experience. I can think of a few reasons. I didn't keep the news from my friends and it was really good to get their prayers and support when the pregnancy didn't work out. I did adopt a wait and see attitude till the first scan at week twelve. Reading the forums on other mothers' experiences and how they coped with their miscarriages and writing down my own experience have really helped me to get it out of my system. Having the faith and knowledge that God's design is perfect, I'm thankful that the body knows when not to allow unhealthy conception to continue.
Natural Miscarriage
Soon after the miscarriage I started on Red raspberry tea, and still drinking it. I also had lots of ginger on the first week after the miscarriage to help warm my body – a Singaporean Chinese post-natal practice. A miscarriage equates to a mini birth, in my opinion.
I feel the need to share my experience to help with my healing process and also to provide info for others who may need to know what to expect to minimize the fears and confusing and pain.
(Wednesday)
I was 12.5 weeks pregnant. The midwife couldn’t detect any heartbeat with the fetal Doppler. The next day, I started light spotting with brown traces. The spotting continued for the next 4 days. The midwife was concerned and arranged for a hospital visit.
(Sunday)
An informal scan was performed and a pregnancy sac was found but no heartbeat was detected. I had to return the next day for a formal ultra sound scan.
The scan revealed a sac of 9 weeks pregnancy but a 6 weeks fetal development. No heartbeat detected. It was bad news. I opted for a natural miscarriage although the doctor talked like DNC was the natural way to do it. I stood firm by my decision.
The doctor gave a specific instruction: if a fever developed and bleeding is bad, come back to the hospital immediately.
(Tuesday)
The spotting got heavier the next day. I was at work. However I decided to go home as I didn’t want to be caught out, as I did read that it would come suddenly. On my way home, I bought 2 packs of maternity pad in preparation for the inevitable. That evening, mild cramps and backaches started. It seemed more intense at night.
(Wednesday)
Cramps stopped during the day but the backache continued. I was a wearing pad in preparation for that moment, the whole time. That night, the cramps and backache intensified. After midnight, I woke from my sleep, I could feel the pad soaking. I couldn't get up fast enough to the toilet to check it out. Sitting on the toilet bowl, clots of tissue were dropping rapidly into the toilet bowl. I had to change pad every 3 hours. More tissue dropped out each time I went to the toilet. The cramp and backache continued. My tummy did feel flatter. I hardly had any sleep after that.
(Thursday)
The next day, I was exhausted from the lack of sleep. Bleeding was heavy but it wasn’t soaking heavy. By end of the day, there was hardly any bleeding. I thought the miscarriage was over. But I couldn't be more wrong. The cramps in the tummy were increasing painful. The cramps intensified as the sun set further. At the end of the evening, the hot-water bottle was refilled 4 times just to ease a bit of the most intense pain. The cramps got worse after midnight, and there was an intense pain at the lower pelvis. The feeling was a mixture of bad constipation and intense menstrual cramps. I was going to the toilet every 15 minutes to try to push something out. I was in intense pain when I lied down to get some sleep. This went on all night. At one point, I just wanted to sleep sitting on the toilet bowl out of the exhaustion. I was worn out by the numerous trips to the loo and the none relenting pain. At 3am. the pain was progressively intensifying every minute, and the waves of cramps had now turned into a continual sharp pain at the lower pelvis. The backache was a mild pain in comparison. At one point, I thought I was dying. I nearly called an ambulance. Thousands of thoughts came to my mind – maybe I was constipated and that I need to go for a walk to get things moving. So I started walking around the round, jumped up and down, squatting, did every possible things that came to mind to ease the pain. At the same time, I felt that something was trying to come out but it was kinda of stuck. This was because the pain was felt specifically at the lower pelvis area.
Finally at about 5:30am, when I was squatting on the bedroom floor to ease the tummy pain, I suddenly felt a sharp pain at the opening of the cervix, something was trying to squeeze through the hole. I couldn’t bring myself to the toilet quick enough. As soon as I sat on the toilet bowl, a piece of something dropped out – it was the size of a hand-span. Unlike other tissues I passed out previously, it was in one big piece. The bleeding returned. As soon as that thing passed out, my entire being relaxed, and the cramps eased soon after. I suspected it was probably the sac with the placenta but I was absoluted knackered. All I had energy for was to crawl back into bed to catch some rest. I flushed it down the toilet bowl.
(Friday)
I slept till mid morning the next day. The pain was gone but I felt sore muscles around the tummy. The bleeding continued. I was weak. My tummy was bloated all day and continued into the evening. I was physically weak, mentally in a state of blur.
(Saturday)
The next day, the bloatedness continued along with physical exhaustion. The bleeding had now turned into heavy spotting.
(Sunday)
The bloated tummy finally went away after my bowel was cleared. So, it was probably caused by the constipation. Spotting got heavy each time I stood too long or walked for about 5 minutes continuously or when I mildly exerted myself. But I only needed to change the pad twice a day for hygiene reasons.